I Might As Well Quit This Lousy Wizard Profession

Chapter 90 - 90 I need you to pull me hard

?Chapter 90: I need you to pull me hard. Chapter 90: I need you to pull me hard. “You want to kill me!” the clown-faced version of myself in the mirror took a step back, dramatically clutching its head with both hands, “I’m so scared!”

Then, it twisted its neck, revealing its face from between its hands, and burst into a loud, mocking laughter at Lin An.

“How are you going to kill me? Hahaha, that’s hilarious!”

It laughed so hard it slapped its thigh, pointing at Lin An and was beside itself with amusement, “I am you, I’m a part of you, don’t you understand!”

“I sure don’t live in a mirror!” It suddenly lunged forward, pressing against the glass, and with a crazed smile showed its molar teeth, “I’m inside your heart, I am you!”

It stressed this excitedly, full of scorn, “You can’t kill me, your whip can lash out at others but it can’t reach inside your own heart, get it? Silly child!”

Lin An nodded, letting the red string coil around his arm, “Got it.”

“Eh, that’s more like it.” It looked at Lin An with a look akin to an old father watching his foolish son.

However, Lin An simply replied with a calm expression, “It seems I must wait a while, to learn the practices of Witch-hunting Knight from Professor Cao, master the Furnace, and only then can I kill you, right?”

“Right~” It laughed merrily, and as it did, its expression suddenly froze, staring blankly at Lin An with eyes filled with despair, “What… what did you say?”

Lin An shrugged, “I’m going to sleep now, good night.”

Having said that, he headed straight for the bed.

“Don’t! Please don’t!” It banged frantically against the mirror, bellowing, “Don’t go, I just thought teasing myself was thrilling, I meant no harm!”

“Thrilling?” Lin An glanced back at it.

“Right, right, right! So thrilling!” It smacked its lips with a look of pleasure, and noticing Lin An was about to turn back to sleep, it began to whine again, “I am you, don’t kill me with the Furnace!”

“You are not me!” Lin An walked over and watched it silently, his tone firm, “I… am me!”

“And you, whatever you are, you only get one chance to answer, otherwise, I’m going to bed!”

“Tch~” It rolled its eyes disdainfully, “I am you, how could I not know you? You just love to pose, since you came back, you must be curious.”

“I’ll just tantalize you, refusing to tell you, let’s see if you can sleep!”

It was right.

But Lin An made no indication, just continued to watch it with a calm face.

“Fine, fine~” it waved its hand dismissively, tilted its head back, mumbling to itself, “I am your spirit, surely you know that. Hang on, let me check our memory, uh, what do I need to say for you to understand what the Spiritual Energy in the Spirit Realm actually does.”

It scratched its chin, suddenly snapped its fingers, and looked vigorously at Lin An.

“Animating, you know the word ‘animate’, right? It’s often found in wizard stories, you’ve read so many web novels, you must know about it.”

“The most classic animations are brooms that move on their own, pots and spoons, and stuff like that.”

Lin An nodded.

“Great, the Spiritual Energy of the Spirit Realm has animated a part of you. That animated part is called the spirit.” It gave a thumbs up, pointing at itself, “Like me, for instance!”

“Spiritual Energy in the Spirit Realm can animate all things beyond physical objects.”

“And that’s what makes it somewhat hard to understand.”

“If it could animate physical objects, then my existence would be just like one of your hands, or a leg, say, that got animated.”

“Nourished by the Spiritual Energy, it becomes spirited.”

“You’ve read cultivator novels, right? Suddenly a sword starts talking, like that, a sword spirit.”

“Picture this~” it said, getting excited, raising its hands to chest level, gesturing wildly in front of it, “With the help of the Spiritual Energy, your head, your feet, your organs, your skin, your intestines… Hehehe… they suddenly become spirited!”

“Then, they start moving according to their own consciousness, but no matter how much they move, everyone is stuck together. So, they can only fight, figuring out who can actually take charge over the whole body.”

Got it.

Lin An squinted at it, “So, if you beat me, you get to take over the body, and then, I would turn into a Sorcerer Zombie?”

“Of course not! My foolish little idiot!” it rolled its eyes again, “Since Mr. Liu sent those two maniacs to kill you, I have been the master of the body, understand? Did we turn into a Sorcerer Zombie then?”

Lin An was taken aback, “What do you mean?”

“What do I mean?!!!!” It shouted, staring with bulging eyes and pouting at Lin An, “You were so terrified by a spirit shaped like a snake, where would you find the courage to confront such a situation!”

“Your brain might not have been thinking anything at the time, but deep down in your heart, you were already turning over every possibility!”

“Whoosh~” It waved its hand, “At light speed, finishing all thought and judgment.”

“Finally reaching a conclusion—no hope, just await your death!”

“But you just didn’t want to die, and then the power within you was awakened.”

“This inner power was initially in a state of chaos, but as you devoured that ‘rabbit-masked Warlock’, influenced by his spirit, your inner power was drawn to a substantial choice.”

“Specifically, because you were so repressed and numb, the balance of your mind made me, this ‘thrill-seeking’ side of you, appear.”

“Initially, it was a balance, which would bounce back to normal after a stress reaction.”

“But you absorbed that maniac’s spirit, thus I was nourished, evolving from an emotion to a spirit, get it?”

“Otherwise, do you think, with your fear of death and craving for stability, you could pull off seeking thrills?”

“Would you have the guts to kill that mad male witch amidst a witch-hunting knight’s hunt?”

“Would you escape only to saunter in front of them and not be afraid, even find it exhilarating?”

“Would you actively agree to go undercover into the ‘Mad Warlock’s Hollow’ Organization that you so desperately avoid?”

“Then you become a spy for the Witch Hunter Knights, and when you see Chen Xinmi, the President of the Witches’ Association who could snap at any moment, you’re not scared? And you can still send secret signals and flirt with Miao Miao?”

“So!” Lin An furrowed his brows, interrupting the incessant chatter.

Staring coldly at the reflection of himself wearing a clown mask in the mirror, “Are you an alternate personality born out of my stress?”

Do I really have a mental disorder?

“Alternate personality my ass!” it cursed, “I am you, get it? I am you! People’s hearts change, I am just a part of your heart!”

But Lin An didn’t believe it, staring at it, “Black Cat told me it is Chen Xinmi, and it is not Chen Xinmi.”

“Bullshit! It drives me crazy talking to you!” it said, looking like it was about to lose its mind, “I am an emotion of yours, you understand? I am an emotion of yours that has gained sentience through the nourishment of spiritual energy, you get it?”

It saw Lin An about to speak and raised a finger to its lips, “Shh, don’t interrupt, let me finish!”

“If one day, I combine more and more with sentience, I’ll start to seem less and less like you until I turn into a monster.”

“Of course, I could also turn into an animal, depending on your state of mind.”

“It’s complicated inside, it’s hard for me to explain clearly to you. But that’s the way it is. When you see me becoming less like you, more like an animal or a monster, and I take control of the body, that’s when we will become a Sorcerer Zombie!”

“In short, when I take control of the body, and at that time I am a combination of you and spiritual energy, we can say that we have transformed from a person into a combination of a person and spiritual energy.” It clapped its hands together, “That’s how the Spirit Realm recognizes us, and then we can enter the Spirit Realm.”

“It’s the same logic over there!”

“If you take back the control of the body, the Spirit Realm sees you as a foreign object, pushes you out, and you return to the real world.”

Lin An raised an eyebrow, “It’s said that no one has ever managed to leave the Spirit Realm after becoming a Sorcerer Zombie.”

It smirked lecherously, waggling its eyebrows at Lin An, “Because I’m too strong, you get it? When I evolve from an emotion into an obsession, your true nature will be suppressed, hardly able to overpower mine.”

“Have you seen those who are especially stubborn? You can take that as a reference.”

“Got it.” Lin An nodded, “So I might as well learn from the Witch Hunter Knight’s Furnace and refine you, end of story.”

“What the f*ck!”

It yelled, “All that talking for nothing, right?”

It glared at Lin An outside the mirror, somewhat angrily, “You want to destroy yourself? Today you melt your ‘pursuit of excitement,’ and tomorrow your ‘pursuit of pleasure’ may also become sentient from the influence of spiritual energy. What then, you will refine that too?”

“Yeah, go ahead, refine everything.”

“You don’t want ‘self-control,’ you don’t want ‘self-indulgence,’ you don’t want anything!”

“If you don’t want any part of your spiritual self, what do you have left?”

“You’re just left with an empty shell, a walking corpse! No, you’d be worse than a walking corpse! Even zombies want to eat! By then, you wouldn’t even want to eat, you wouldn’t even want to move!”

Lin An fell silent.

He pursed his lips, not speaking, his expression flickering.

It screamed in the mirror, “You are me, we share the same mind, how could I not know what you’re thinking? If you have a question, can’t you just ask directly?”

Lin An licked his lips and nodded helplessly, “Alright, I was just wondering, what should I do?”

“That’s more like it.” It looked as if it had someone teachable, “You must tame me, you gotta whip me, hard, viciously, make me obedient, you understand?”

“!!!”

Lin An was stunned for a moment, looking down at the red string wrapped around his arm, murmuring, “But I can’t lash at you!”

“Damn it!” It exploded, “Metaphor, do you understand the metaphor!”

Okay, okay then.

Lin An frowned, “What exactly should I do?”

“When needed, know how to utilize me, when not needed, know how to restrain the ‘pursuit of excitement’ within, subdue the Heart Demon!”

It suddenly slapped its own cheek, making a loud slapping noise.

“See the clown mask on my face?”

“The day I stop looking like you and start becoming more monstrous signifies that you rely too heavily on ‘pursuit of excitement,’ too indulgent!”

“The day I start to look more like you, becoming identical, means you’re too repressive, causing this spiritual force to wane!”

“Too dependent, too repressive, both are not good.”

Lin An was surprised, “Then what am I supposed to do?”

It spread its hands, “If you don’t understand, how would I know, you need to find the answer yourself, I can only feel some of the interactions between me and the spiritual energy. However…”

It said excitedly to Lin An outside the mirror, “But I know what it feels like to subdue the Heart Demon. It’s when I truly appear in front of you, and you tear me to shreds, eat me up bite by bite!”

As it spoke, it burst into laughter, a delirious laugh, “Others’ sentience is easy to ingest, but your own sentience, that’s not so easy~”